An Update
If you haven’t noticed, it’s been a while since anything has been uploaded. There’s been no blogs, no videos, nothing. And I’m sorry for that. I want to say that there isn’t a good reason for it, but I think I went through more than what I would have expected.
To go a little more into detail about it, I got kind of thrown in to the unknown after I got laid off in the beginning of August. I was a lost little lamb, and honestly, I was very confused. I was hurt that my job chose to let me go, even though I understood why. I cried. I loved the community the job had, the atmosphere, not to mention the benefits and the fact that I got to learn while on the job, and they were patient with me while I was learning. The company was going through a rough time and they started letting people go in order of seniority, and unfortunately I was one of the newer people to join the team, and I would not have considered myself a super valuable asset. And this truth hurt, and it hurt a lot. I tried to look on the positive side of things, but it was really hard. Losing the best job I’ve ever had threw me more into the dirt than I realized.
That couple of weeks turned into a month before I started really looking for a new job. I was “casually” looking during this time but I didn’t have a lot of hope for the jobs I was finding. My heart just wasn’t in it. In September I started really applying and working towards getting a new job. I applied to so many jobs, even ones that I didn’t meet the baseline requisites for. I eventually found a contracting job where I teach AI how to have better code responses (the irony, I know). Now it’s December 9th, and I still haven’t even had a single interview. I feel very let down. I feel like a failure. Maybe I’m just not working hard enough. These are all still feelings that I have been dealing with since I started the job hunt, and I will likely still deal with for a while.
Because I felt so much in the dirt, I struggled to move forwards with DIDS. I have a video that I’ve been struggling to edit for the last several MONTHS. I stopped uploading shorts for art. I didn’t do any blogs. I only very recently have gotten back into the swing-ish of things and getting back into the groove. And I think I’ve come to a conclusion for a couple of things:
I’m no longer confident in my decision to go full-time game developer.
I’ve gotten into crocheting and I would like to start selling the items I make.
I’m starting a business where I create and sell homemade crocheted dogs/cats based off of the buyer’s pet(s).
I’m way more interested in a physical art medium than I have ever been before.
and I think I’d like to start vlogging.
So yeah. There’s a lot of changes happening, changes I didn’t think I’d be making a couple of months ago. But things are in the work, and slowly getting back to normal. I’m still hunting for a developer job. That’s still the best path for me to be on right now I’m just missing the most important part - the job.
Trust me when I say, I’m really trying my hardest to get back on track. Having a side business for crocheting would be awesome, but the stepping stones are not set in place for that to be a full-time business I run. Having a job will be awesome, so I’m still applying for game and software developer jobs. The video games I’ve been working on have definitely taken on a lower priority, but there is nothing wrong with me having a setback and taking my time getting back into it.
Again, I’m sorry. Things will still be slow, but all good things take time, right?
