March and April 2024 Monthly Update

I’m bundling these two months together because I feel like very little happened. It’s unfortunate, but I let video games get the best of me. They’re too addicting. In March I released 3 videos out of 9… and April I released only 2 also out of 9. These two months were really rough for me. A lot of things were happening in my life (it always feels like something happens). In April I didn’t have good internet for 3 weeks and then I was sick for half a week, and in March I needed to get some personal things out of the way before April 1st, which took priority over DIDS.

I’ve been feeling pretty unmotivated. I’ll put it out there, I had a really hard time working on almost everything. This has changed the last couple of weeks as I write this blog post, but it’s still a little rough going for me. I was anticipating some reluctance to work on my own projects after working in Unity for my actual full time job, but I wasn’t expecting my motivation to decrease this badly. I’ve been working on a side project for a video game I play, Black Desert Online. It’s not very big, but when starting it felt like something I could accomplish pretty quickly (and I was right) but I desperately needed a project to boost my motivation. It’s not done yet, but it’s close and I’ll wrap it up soon and be able to move on with my renewed confidence.

I’ve also been thinking that while I would love to make video games, I might be more software oriented. And I’m not sure about this yet. I like working with UI quite a bit, and I love coming up with video game ideas, but when it comes down to making them, I feel extremely uninspired and just lost. I think the word lost sums up how I’ve been feeling pretty accurately.

Anyways… Here’s the very pathetic list of videos I released the last two months:

Portfolio Illustration Workshop - Getting Inspiration Back

Sea of Stars - Ep. 3 | Too Many Ants!!

Sea of Stars - Ep. 4 | Malkomud the Wizard

Sea Of Stars Ep. 5 | To Brisk!

Sea Of Stars Ep. 6 | Abandoned Wizard's Lab

I’m pretty committed to releasing a video every Monday/Friday for May. I have (yet another) a new series on how to make a video game. It goes into detail on each step along the way and I hope it’ll be informational for people who are wanting to get started. I also need to wrap up Colour Quest. I have everything written out and planned out, I just need to DO IT.

I’ve also refocused on learning Godot. Brackeys released a video saying he’s back and his very first video after that was a Godot tutorial. I anticipate Godot definitely being the indie developers ideal engine instead of Unity in the future. What a time for game developers.

I feel like I say this every blog, but I’m sorry that it’s so short, but it’s the honest update. I’m trying hard not to feel like a failure in what I’ve achieved, but it’s only two months. I’m still just starting out. And it’s okay to fail because how else will I succeed in the future? Until next month!